Some of My Bears

A) My mind always scanning my body for weird symptoms which I then turn into anxiety which self escalates itself. I'm gettiong much better about being aware of this when it recurs and redirecting back to my core to hault this.

B) Fear that I'm not worthy to be a photography instructor. This one is a bit tougher but I am coming around to acknowledge that I am worthy and that I can do this.

C) Anger at home. Due to the rather stressful situation we've been dealing with these past 6 months with our son, daughter in law and their new baby living with us, I have realized that my mond is constantly on the defensive and scanning...looking for signals to tee off on. I have been becoming increasingly aware of when my mind is doing this and I'm becoming more adept at haulting that activity. When situations do arise, I now know that I can only control what I do and not what the actions of others are. In learning this, I become an observer, rather than being sucked in as a participant.

D) general fear of loosing our home since I'm unemployed. As I jhave been laid off and in a "trial modification" for some months with no formal paperwork in hand, I think it's safe to say that it is a truth that the worl could come calling and start foreclosure proceedings at any time, even though we are meeting our monthly modification commitments. This one really ate at me internally and of course affected a lot of what I did. Know what? If they take the house, they take it. It's just a big wooden box that in reality, we'd be better off without anyway given the economy and upside down state of the housing market. I realize that I don't need this box to live in to be happy! Actually, I'm waiting for someone in the group to start a commune so we can sign up :)

I have more and as I develop my awareness and redirection activities for them, I'll chat about this further.